Cross posted from PrayforCalamity
by TDoS
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She picks up a stick. Her two year old hands are pristine, without callouses. Standing straight up she begins to walk forward on the path that leads along a ridge line deep into the forest. On uneven ground her steps still betray a clumsiness, but she overwhelms her lack of experience with exuberance and then turns to see me walking a few steps behind her.
“Dada get a big stick?”
She wants me to use a hiking stick as well. Last year I would carry her in a hiking pack, and I would use a large stick for support as I navigated slopes and downed tree trunks. Now she imitates the habit using the small bit of hickory in her hand, poking the ground with it as she walks, and she expects me to do so as well.
“You want me to find a hiking stick?”
“Uh huh.”
“How about this one?”
Leaning over I pick up a bowed piece of a fallen branch and proceed to snap off the twigs that jut from it in crooked tangles. It is a brittle piece of wood and suffices as more of an accessory than anything, but my daughter is happy that we are now both equipped for our walk. She turns once more down the path. A two year old girl takes confident steps with her hiking stick in one hand, and a plastic pink magic wand in the other. We are going out in search of fairies, and she flat refuses to embark on such an adventure without her wand.
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Economic collapse finds itself a popular plot device across a broad spectrum of the internet. Those who anticipate such a collapse monitor the details of international trade, noting the ups and downs of stock and bond markets, currency values, volatility and shipping indices. Economic collapse is one of those concepts that is out the door and around the world generating hype, fear, and sales of pocket knives before anyone who would take the time to explore its value can even settle into an armchair. As with so many other premises and cliches we are bombarded with, most people take for granted that the economy is even a thing.
In 1776 Adam Smith published his magnum opus, “An Inquiry Into the Nature and Causes of the Wealth of Nations,” in which Smith establishes the now firmly entrenched and wholly mythical notion that barter societies preceded the invention of money, which was an inevitable progression due to its efficiency at facilitating trade. In “Nations,” Smith also establishes the idea that the economy is even a thing that exists and that can be studied. Of course, it will be men like himself that are capable of doing the studying and imparting their wisdom onto the world. It is quite a ruse, if you think about it, inventing a specter and then inventing the business of studying it.
When we speak of “the economy,” what are we even talking about? The Dow Jones Industrial? The S&P 500? Or are we merely speaking of some amalgamation of the habits and behaviors of humans which combine to provide for our daily acquisition of needs? It may seem silly to question because it is such a prevalent notion in this culture, but for the majority of human existence, there was no economy. It was an idea that had to be invented, and now, there are whole academic wings dedicated to the maintenance of the idea, as well as sections in newspapers and channels on television focused solely on its changing winds. Those who lord over such institutions have their charts and maps and a host of methods for describing the economy to everyone else. At times, they speak of their trade as a science, which would lead one to believe that the thing which they observe is predictable, that they could establish some level of capable control over it. At other times, the economy is a wild thing, and it moves and thrashes of its own chaotic will like a storm squall.
So people watch the signs. They generate charts. They consult the experts. Some believe that the economy, despite its tantrums, is an all loving God that will always rise again, and so they tithe. Others believe the economy is a false idol set to feast on the souls of the avaricious or the merely ignorant, and so they prepare.
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As someone who long ago came to the conclusion that the civilized method of human organization is one that is always bound to fail, I have many times put forth the suggestion that we need to transition into living arrangements that do not rely on the creation of cities. This is all to say, I have an anti-civilzation philosophy, which to the uninitiated perhaps seems extreme or absurd. Consider quickly, this definition of civilization offered by wikipedia:
“A civilization is any complex society characterized by urban development, social stratification, symbolic communication forms (typically, writing systems), and a perceived separation from and domination over the natural environment by a cultural elite. Civilizations are intimately associated with and often further defined by other socio-politico-economic characteristics, including centralization, the domestication of both humans and other organisms, specialization of labor, culturally ingrained ideologies of progress and supremacism, monumental architecture, taxation, societal dependence upon farming as an agricultural practice, and expansionism.”
To be against civilization is not to be in favor of some inhumanity towards others, but simply to believe that urban development, infinite growth, ecological destruction, social stratification, agriculture, etc. are ultimately unsustainable pursuits that are dooming our possibility of existing very far into the future. Further, the anthropocentrism inherent in such societies results in the widespread extirpation of the other beings with who we share this planet.
Suggesting that we abandon, once and for all, the project of civilization is often met with a buffet of criticisms. That civilization gave us the sciences, and the sciences – usually now expressed simply as Science! – gave us a candle in an otherwise dark, demon haunted world, is usually proffered as reason enough for humanity to continue on a civilized trajectory. Critics of anti-civ ideas would have us believe that as primitive people we lived in constant fear of disembodied spirits that stalked and haunted us, manifesting as sickness and death that we could not otherwise explain. Science! they claim, was a great demon slayer that has brought illumination in the form of germ theory and biology, and thanks to optics of all kinds, both micro and telescope, we can see that the universe both minute and macro is not subject to god or djinn, not spirit or elemental but merely to the wind of a grand mechanical clock of subatomic particles and fundamental forces.
What light! It bathes us in such cleansing luminance! Fear not as you walk through the world sons of Ptolemy and daughters of Hypatia!
Now check your stocks. There are movement in the markets. How is your 401K?
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More is happening in the space around you than you can possibly imagine. Your body is equipped with various sensory abilities that allow you to gather information about the world around you, and this information is used to generate a picture of existence that you as a biological entity can use to go forth and attain your survival. This picture exists in your mind only, and it is further shaped and formed by your particular biological makeup, as well as the cultural programming that you have been inculcated with since birth.
The world you see is not the world I see, let alone, is not the world an owl, or a butterfly, or a snap pea sees. Human societies have a habit of claiming that through their sciences that have been able to package and interpret reality as it is. The fun sets in when we notice that each of these societies that has claimed such a handle on reality have all, in fact, had different descriptions of reality.
Again, more is happening around us than we could know. We are filtering. We are constructing from the pieces we capture. We are naming and simplifying and manufacturing volumes of symbols. In a sense, we must do so so as not to be crippled by the overwhelming weight of all that we experience. But ultimately, more is not included in our picture of the world than is included. The cutting room floor actually contains more reality than the final film playing out in our heads.
It is this understanding that stays my hand when others might wave theirs in dismissal of the disembodied phenomena that live outside of the lens we in the modern industrial world currently use to view our surroundings. Those who fear the crumbling of the city walls for what hordes of demons might come rushing in like a torrent to corrupt our understandings so finely crafted over centuries of weighing and measuring might do well to look around and see which demons already stalk the streets and halls. We have traded one set of lesser gods for another. You many not make offerings to the spirits of rain after holding the dry dirt in your fingers, but your faith in tomorrow’s full stomach might have you watching for a little green triangle to come drifting across a stock ticker. Where a few centuries ago a geomancer may have cast a chart that relied on the anima mundi – or soul of the Earth – for its answers, today’s economists are numerologists drawing meaning from the staggered lines that connect disparate values of commodities and currencies, hoping to tease from it all some prediction about future well being.
Am I attempting to claim that germs do not exist? Of course not. Am I attempting to claim that science has produced nothing of value? Of course not. I am simply suggesting that civilized life has not rid the world of demons, but merely shifted the demons we concern ourselves with. Priests have not gone out of fashion, to be sure, they just wear a different costume and spin incantations of a new variety. This class of priests extends far beyond the realm of economics, and the demons they promise to exorcise can be found anywhere uncertainty and fear have taken root. The simple fact is that life is a dangerous pursuit, and we all enter into it with a debt. We owe our lives and will all be held to account sooner or later. If we do not create cultures capable of accepting this most basic truth, we will invariably create cultures that attempt to mitigate our fear of death with palliatives. The palliative du jour in our particular civilization is technological domination of the ecological systems of the Earth, and it is this behavior that is responsible for the variety of cataclysms now unfolding globally. Sea ice melt, top soil loss, forest die offs, oceanic dead zones, mass extinction of species, climatic disruption; all have now long passed the formative stage and are well underway.
But so afraid of the dark beyond the city gates, the civilized world clings to their neon gods. They pray to markets and justice, progress and innovation. The Maya may have found it prudent to sacrifice some humans, perhaps by throwing them into a cenote or by letting the blood of a Pok-ta-tok victor to replenish the vigor of the tree of life. We modern civilized are far more sophisticated, and instead sacrifice the salamander, the Ash tree, the island chain, the clean flowing river, the indigenous tribe, or the global poor.
If we refuse to defecate in the river because we consider the water sacred and believe it contains within it a spirit of its own, does it matter? The water runs clean. If we continue to clear cut jungles so as to mine for rare Earth metals using diesel fuel and laborers fed mono-crops all because we believe that technology will somehow repair the wounds we have inflicted on the living planet, can we really claim that our demon free world is now safer?
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She kicks up leaves as she walks.
“Shh!” I crouch low, squatting on my hams and I tap my ear with a forefinger. “Listen.” My daughter emulates my posture and I cannot help but smile. She looks out into the mass of trees before us. I whisper when I ask her if she sees any fairies, and she whispers her replies.
“Yes.”
“How many?”
“Two fairies.”
“What color are they?”
“Blue.”
The afternoon sunlight is gold as it falls all around us. We stay there a while and I tell her that we must not disturb the fairies. We tell them that we are not there to do them any harm. We are nice people, we assure them. We hope that they are safe in the forest and we wish them well in their endeavors. After all, the forest can also be home to goblins, which is why I am glad my daughter has her wand.
Well said Td0s, I enjoy your essays, we have trod similar paths, my daughter is grown and is many miles away. Our paths are not easy in a sense, our worlds are fashioned from blood sweat and tears but at 75 years down the road I can say I have no regrets.
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I partially agree with Lee Bentley, but at 71 years down the road I am not so optimistic as he is. I have four very young grandsons, who see fairies everywhere, but I fear for their future.
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You are an Artist gifted by the Truth tdOs. Those of us who can still hear need your voice. Reality waits patiently for those who will clear away the rubbish in their minds and learn from Her, and speak Her Truth to others who are hungry for it and open enough to hear it. Your little girl is lucky to have a Dada like you. And we on this blog are grateful that you have chosen to share with us.
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Your piece above has moved me and touched me in a way that I really need to carry on with a journey that is often lonely and difficult. Thank you.
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Wow, thank you for such high praise. Im just happy to know im either not completely bonkers, or that there are a few more completely bonkers fellows out there with me.
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I suppose the title of your essay tdOs was from Carl Sagan ’s The Demon-Haunted World: Science as a Candle in the Dark? In the book Sagan lights into fundamentalist beliefs, new age and paranormal researches, etc. – without realizing that he was becoming a scientific fundamentalist himself in the process.
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That is where i got it, yes.
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Td0s, this is a beautifully written piece. I also have young children, full of imagination, and I find your musings very easy to relate to.
My wife was writing about our kids the other day and very aptly described their play. They’re so busy imagining the next element of their pretend game, and then verbalizing it to one another, that very little play seems to actually happen. As soon as one of them says “and let’s pretend…XYZ”, the other one thinks of something and says “and let’s pretend… ABC”. This goes back and forth for a long time, weaving itself into a story of sorts.
“We’re rainbow colored cats, who are looking for our owner, but our owner was kidnapped, by a big fat guy who looks like a baby, and actually, I’m a unicorn, not a kitty…”
I struggle daily with a burning desire to see the whole nastiness of civilization come crumbling down, while knowing that the longer it holds together the longer my children can enjoy the luxury and safety we’re afforded by our position near the seat of Empire. I long for collapse for myself, but fear it for my children.
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Thanks for reading. That is a great observation about their play. Indeed, collapse threatens all of those we love. Ots hard knowledge to hold.
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Hi Froggman,
I too long for collapse but as you stated there is a fear that goes with it.
I don’t have children so I guess I escape that particular fear from a personal point of view. However I do feel a creeping guilt for wishing such a thing when I know what the outcome involves.
It’s certainly sites such as this with wonderful posts & comments that reconciles some of that guilt when I know deep down what this cultural freak show has unleashed upon the earth (& other planets if it could reach them).
Thank you for your comments Froggman & thank you TdOs for another wonderful essay.
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Many of us who are awakening to the certainty of collapse, whatever dark forms it may take, have this ambivalence, this love/hate relationship to it. These feelings of course will have little impact on the onrushing momentum of our failed human history. A studied indifference to what one cannot control yields a less stressful waiting. The serenity prayer is a helpful reminder of our impotence, and offers humility as an option.
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Sorry, but what we are discussing here is trivia in the scheme of things. I’ll try and explain:
Unfortunately I work in the nuclear industry. I don’t think people quite understand how dangerous nuclear energy is particularly if reactors are left unattended due to some catastrophe. If they knew the truth they would be terrified. I blame certain so called “Green” movements for that. When I read their anti-nuclear stance I’m not surprised that many people have a sort of Ho Hum approach to nuclear. It’s almost deliberate misinformation. They telling you the trivia and avoiding the truly scary parts.
Nuclear energy is a ticking extinction level time bomb. If the preppers understood this they would stop prepping because it’s pointless. Many people imagine that if a nuclear reactor is left unattended for whatever reason, say global pandemic, that nuclear reactors have a fail safe shut down. That’s primary Myth number one. They don’t. They scram which is the insertion of control rods into the core to stop criticality. However the core is still super hot and radioactive. It requires cooling and it takes months to cool down. This is an active management process requiring human involvement and lots of cooling water being pumped around the core. In the US they are required to keep 24 hours worth of backup diesel to run the cooling systems. None have more than a few days worth. There is no backup plan for an unmanned reactor, period. So within a few days of being unattended the core becomes exposed. Decay heat will cause meltdown and breach of containment. Huge amounts of radiation will be released into the atmosphere and into ground water. There are 99 reactors in the US alone!
Giant myth number 2: Nuclear waste is radioactive stuff that you stick in the ground in concrete barrels. It might leak a little but I’ll be ok. Wrong. HLW is extremely dangerous and will meltdown if cooling systems fail. It’s kept in cooling pools because of decay heat. There may be a couple of tons of radioactive fuel in a reactor. There can be hundreds of tons in a single HLW cooling pool. Many of them right next to the reactor! As of today there are 99 nuclear reactors in the US and many more HLW cooling pools. France has 58 reactors. Globally there is around 225,000 tons of HLW in cooling pools. There is simply no where to hide on the planet and no way to survive if even a fraction of this amount melts down.
So in a nutshell Nuclear energy is based on one fatal assumption. That no catastrophe will strike mankind and the reactors will always be manned. History has proven how ludicrous this assumption is. We have in effect built a Doomsday machine. If any catastrophe strikes the globe or even just the US or France for example, it is quite literally the end. To be clear. Death by radiation poisoning is one of the worst if not the worst death a human could experience. I pray to God people wake up and something is done about this.
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As you correctly state – this is an extinction event.
Scientists say nuclear fuel pools around the country pose safety and health risks: The Fukushima nuclear catastrophe could have been far worse, it turns out, and experts say neither the nuclear industry nor its regulators are doing enough to prevent a calamitous nuclear fuel fire in America
https://www.publicintegrity.org/2016/05/20/19712/scientists-say-nuclear-fuel-pools-around-country-pose-safety-and-health-risks
Assuming a 50-100% Cs137 release during a spent fuel fire, [8] the consequence of the Cs-137 exceed those of the Chernobyl accident 8-17 times (2MCi release from Chernobyl). Based on the wedge model, the contaminated land areas can be estimated. [9] For example, for a scenario of a 50% Cs-137 release from a 400 t SNF pool, about 95,000 km² (as far as 1,350 km) would be contaminated above 15 Ci/km² (as compared to 10,000 km² contaminated area above 15 Ci/km² at Chernobyl). http://belfercenter.hks.harvard.edu/publication/364/radiological_terrorism.html
Containing radiation equivalent to 14,000 times the amount released in the atomic bomb attack on Hiroshima 68 years ago, more than 1,300 used fuel rod assemblies packed tightly together need to be removed from a building that is vulnerable to collapse, should another large earthquake hit the area. http://www.reuters.com/article/2013/08/14/us-japan-fukushima-insight-idUSBRE97D00M20130814
The problem is if the spent fuel gets too close, they will produce a fission reaction and explode with a force much larger than any fission bomb given the total amount of fuel on the site. All the fuel in all the reactors and all the storage pools at this site (1760 tons of Uranium per slide #4) would be consumed in such a mega-explosion. In comparison, Fat Man and Little Boy weapons dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki contained less than a hundred pounds each of fissile material – See more at: http://www.dcbureau.org/20110314781/natural-resources-news-service/fission-criticality-in-cooling-ponds-threaten-explosion-at-fukushima.html
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Very good points but it wouldn’t really matter whether that amount of fuel/waste exploded or not. The radiation alone from just a few reactors in the US for example melting down/catching fire would kill all life on the planet. I have a depressing chuckle when I hear people talking about nuclear war being the problem. Nuclear war heads contain a few pounds worth of radioactive material. Reactors and cooling pools around the world contain hundreds of thousands of tons of highly radioactive fuel! Chernobyl was just one reactor and it was within minutes of rendering most of Europe unliveable. Any scenario that results in a significant proportion of these reactors being unmanned either globally of nationally would be an ELE. And no one talks about this issue. It’s beyond comprehension. It’s the ONLY issue and it’s never mentioned. Figures…
I will correct Greg on two points. None of which change the impact of what he is saying. It takes years for a reactor cool down not months. Most reactors have at least 7 days worth of diesel. But then again someone has to refuel the generators. On the 8th Day G_d corrected his mistake.
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Can you give us some websites to back up your statements about the global lethality of a few nuclear storage pools going uncooled? I think this is not known by a lot of us interested in our nuclear predicament.
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I think thats horse shit.
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Can you explain your comment further tdOs? Is asking for more information deplorable to your mind? Are you assuming that everyone knows the details of how a small number of overheating nuclear stockpiles leads to the end of all life on Earth. How do you know this? Is an off the top of your head belief enough for you to believe that anyone who doesn’t share it is stupid or ill intentioned? Strange, because you reveal yourself to be a thoughtful and intelligent person in your writing. Maybe I pushed one of your buttons unintentionally….? Did you jump to the conclusion that I was defending our criminal policy of building nuclear power stations in the first place?
That is very far from my understanding of our situation. I think that releasing the nuclear genie in the first instance was perhaps the most egregious act of hubris and stupidity that humans have ever perpetrated.
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No need to go off the handle. Answer: I spoke to a guy who spent years working in a nuclear facility, plus read resources from the web.
Be more worried about damage to containment pools via earthquakes and such. That is what will cause regional disasters.
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Thank you for the little lesson on nuclear power plants. I’ve heard this reference very little in my readings and failed to realize the true magnitude of this potential disaster. I have no children and am glad that I don’t have to fret and stew over them, but I lament those that do because the children are the future of our species if there is a future at all. This essay by td0s says a lot of truths about our current situation and I truly hope his little daughter has a planet worth living on in the future, but from my perspective, after 62 years, the planet’s in really bad shape. I’ve watched it deteriorate ever since the 1st Earth Day when in 10th grade we had a series of talks ,at school, where the future was laid out in graphic detail, where by 2050 things would be very bad for humans and the rest of the species we share the Earth with. Surprise, the timeline was wrong by 30 years or so because it’s here now. I hope for human survival by right now I give it about a 30% chance and that’s if the hapless leaders do something; but I remain skeptical. Again, thanks for the essay and I hope td0s’s daughter lives a long life, peace, the Ol’ Hippy.
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Some of us have noted how beautiful and authentic your writing is tdOs. Do you keep a journal of your thoughts and experiences? There could be a significant book out of your mind and the life you are leading….
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These essays are the closest thing. I have resisted writing a book for years on years for the simple reason that I don’t want to be responsible for producing anything. I don’t want to use paper and energy, or to create waste and pollution, etc. related to production as the result of creating a book.
My thoughts aren’t so special that is worth the ruin caused by mass production and distribution.
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