The Carnival of Broken Angels

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Beneath traveling tents and the festival’s glare,
The Strongman bent iron with anguish and care;
He loved the Winged Girl, whose feathers were shorn—
A fallen celestial, in sorrow reborn.

At dusk, when the jeering of crowds slipped away,
He’d gently untangle her wings from the day;
His massive hands, nimble, would brush off the dust,
And she’d mourn for lost winds that had shattered her trust.

He envisioned a world where her wings were made whole,
She dreamed he could carry the weight of her soul;
They’d meet in the dark by the fortune-teller’s tent,
Defying the stars and their pitiless intent.

One night, in a fever of passion and flame,
He pulled her too close, forgetting his shame;
His powerful arms, born of atom and fire,
Fractured her fragile wings, and every desire.

The crack was a sound only they could have heard,
A promise of flight now eternally blurred;
He wept as he cradled the ruin he’d wrought,
While her tears fell like stars that the heavens forgot.

The barker just smiled at this sorrowful art,
And cast them together in tragedy’s part;
“The Angel Who Fell for the Beast Who Destroyed!”
He’d cry to the crowd in theatrical poise.

Now, he holds her each night in their shared, narrow bed,
His arms are the cage for the words left unsaid;
She touches the strength that extinguished her sky,
A love story lost as the world passes by.

They perform their sad tragedy, day after day,
While normal folks judge from a safe world away;
For the cruelest of fates, the most bitter of sins,
Is the love that endures when the suffering begins.

Steel and Skin

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Beneath flickering tents in the carnival’s grime,
The Blade-Eater dazzled, his peril sublime;
He feasted on sabers, on razors and steel,
A hunger for pain none but he could feel.

The Illustrated Lady was tapestried dusk—
Her skin wore her secrets in emerald and musk;
Each swirl and each serpent, each memory lost,
Inscribed as reminders of heartache’s true cost.

They met in the quiet where sawdust is strewn,
Past fortune’s false prophets and under the moon;
She’d touch his scarred hands with a trembling embrace,
Reading the stories his wounds left un-erased.

He ached to unravel the shadowed depths she’d concealed,
To decipher each symbol her silence never revealed;
But steel cannot soften, nor ink touch a blade,
And desire cuts deeper than secrets betrayed.

By dawn, every costume and mask is relinquished,
Yet scars linger on when the revellers have finished;
She learns all the afflictions he dare not confess,
He unspools her silence in each soft caress.

Behind velvet curtains where bare selves reside,
Steel cannot comfort, and ink cannot hide;
Their wounds—praised in public, in private, remain:
He carves through the torment that tattoos her pain.

Though sadness is inked, their anguish made real,
Their love scripts what neither time nor suffering can steal;
For even in carnivals, misfits are shadowed by disdain,
Yet their hearts write new verses that break sorrow’s chains.

The Strongman’s Folly: How Authoritarian Ambition Accelerates Civilizational Collapse

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Introduction

In recent years, the United States has witnessed a perilous convergence of authoritarian ambition, executive lawlessness, and grandiose corruption emblematic of historical decadence. Nowhere is this more apparent than in the failed but dangerous attempts of Donald Trump to consolidate power—efforts that, far from being aberrations, intimately reflect the late-stage crises of industrial civilization: declining returns on energy, increasing inequality, corroded institutions, and the desperate preservation of privilege atop a hollowing society. This essay investigates the mechanisms and risks of Trump’s regime—from his empowerment of ICE as a personal militia and deregulation-fueled corruption to the historic decadence that portends collapse—and situates these trends against the background of civilizational decline.​


Authoritarian Strategies and the Theater of Power

The Politics of Deliberate Decadence

Trump’s manner of rule derives directly from a long tradition of strongman politics, in which spectacle is a central tool of domination. The “deliberate decadence” of golden ballrooms, extravagant parties, and social media performances is not merely bad taste, but an assertion of power: “To flaunt what others cannot have or should not approve is to remind them who rules and who obeys”. Across history—from Louis XIV’s Versailles to Nero’s opulent banquets—the dramatization of luxury has served as both intimidation and humiliation, a calculated demonstration that the ruler exists “above your suffering” and is immune to consequence.​

This corrosion of restraint and reason is closely tied to the weakening of the rule of law. The overt displays of wealth and impunity signal to followers the regime’s invulnerability, even as they erode trust in institutions and foster cynicism. In Trump’s presidency and post-presidency, such decadence has become a language of power meant to silence criticism, reinforce the mythos of the leader, and marginalize those who dissent.​

ICE and the Personal Police Force

Perhaps the most alarming manifestation of Trump’s authoritarian ambition is the transformation of ICE into what critics have termed a quasi-personal police force. Federal, militarized, and increasingly unaccountable, ICE’s expanded powers have facilitated forced disappearances, aggressive raids, and violations of civil rights—often targeting marginalized groups and political opponents.​​

Gavin Newsom describes this force as “the largest private domestic army of its type, police force anywhere in the world,” with tens of thousands “swearing an oath of office to him, not the Constitution of the United States”. This marks a critical departure from democratic oversight: ICE’s loyalty is redirected toward the executive, not constitutional principles. Mass deployments of ICE, Border Patrol, the National Guard, and even active-duty Marines to American cities for domestic policing duties underscore the normalization of executive militarization and the erosion of civilian checks.​

Suppressing Democracy: Elections and Dissent

Trump’s authoritarian “playbook” extends to direct manipulation of the electoral system: redistricting, disenfranchisement, intimidation at polling stations via law enforcement, and disinformation campaigns. By seizing control of local and state-level power and threatening dissenters with law enforcement toolkits, the regime undermines the democratic process itself.​​


Corruption, Deregulation, and Financial Decay

Echoes of the 1920s: Corruption as Collapse

The spectacle of decadence is inseparable from systemic corruption and deregulation. Trump’s regime has presided over a dramatic dismantling of market guardrails—firing regulators, cutting SEC staff, suspending oversight, and enabling risky financial schemes. The result is an “overheated economy on the brink of demise,” where speculative investment, fraud, and “Ponzi-like” bubbles proliferate unchecked.​

Author William A. Birdthistle, former SEC director, observes alarming parallels: “Published a century ago, F. Scott Fitzgerald’s The Great Gatsby captured the culture of an overheated economy on the brink of demise. Just as Jay Gatsby fell from the height of fortune to an ignominious death, the 1920s roared with financial overindulgence until the markets drowned in the Wall Street crash of 1929. The Great Depression followed, and the consequences for the global economy proved calamitous”.​

The same economic recklessness is evident today: soaring unregulated markets, consumer debt reminiscent of 1920s installment plans, and the rise of “crypto” as a new locus of predatory speculation. In this environment, the administration actively encourages opacity, even proposing to let private equity schemes access everyday retirement funds—a plan Birdthistle calls “as compelling as a plan to democratize brain surgery”. As protections recede, “fraudsters flourish.” The administration “is stamping on the gas while turning off the headlights”.​

Lawlessness as Governance

The removal of regulatory “chaperones” is masked by a rhetoric of “law and order”—pseudo-moralistic justifications for real, systemic lawlessness. Trump deploys troops and ICE “to confront American citizens in our own cities, while it removes the constables patrolling our financial markets”. The contradiction is instructive: public spectacle, militarized policing, and punitive measures for dissent coexist with an elite free-for-all behind the scenes. In sum, corruption and decadence are not simply effects of late-stage capitalism; they are also deliberate strategies for consolidating control and diverting accountability.​​


Industrial Civilization in Decline

Declining Energy Returns and Societal Fragility

The late industrial era is fraught with material limits, chief among them the declining global energy return on investment (EROI). Once, fossil fuels delivered unprecedented leverage: enormous social, economic, and technical surpluses enabled dramatic expansions of infrastructure, education, and standard of living. As high-grade energy sources dwindle, their replacement by renewables proves, so far, less efficient and unable to sustain the legacy systems built in the age of surplus.​

Today’s industrial systems are “struggling to provide for basic needs or adapt to disruptive technologies” at the very moment that progress is most critical. The mass infrastructure of civilization (roads, power plants, food distribution, water systems) faces compounding risks from underinvestment, political gridlock, and worsening climate impacts.​​

Authoritarianism as Defensive Reaction

In this context, authoritarian regimes arise not as progressive visionaries, but as defenders of the status quo: “authoritarian leaders act to preserve their own power and the existing order at precisely the moment that radical change and renewal are needed”. By intensifying suppression, policing dissent, and privileging the old industries, authoritarians protect a system in terminal decline, exacerbating fragility rather than enabling renewal.​

Empires and Collapse: Case Studies

Historians note that, across civilizations, the same pattern recurs. A consistent sequence is charted: political corruption, violence against marginalized groups, anti-intellectualism, increasingly ostentatious displays by the wealthy, and infrastructural decay as governments neglect or cannot maintain basic systems. It is, in essence, a textbook of what is occurring with Trump’s America: lavish, isolating parties for the elite; dereliction for everyone else; resentment weaponized against minorities and dissidents; collapse of public goods; and, eventually, internal strife and breakdown.​​


The Dismantling of Public Health Under RFK Jr.

Trump’s appointment of RFK Jr. as Secretary of Health and Human Services precipitated an immediate, sweeping assault on the nation’s foundational health institutions. Kennedy moved quickly to lay off and push out experts across agencies, shut down regional offices, and slash more than $11 billion in federal funding crucial for laboratory upgrades, epidemiological tracking, infectious disease monitoring, and emergency response. These abrupt and “haphazard” actions have left state and local agencies reeling, their ability to contain outbreaks of measles, influenza, or more novel threats critically compromised.​

As the CDC hemorrhaged talent and leadership, Kennedy justified purges by attacking the agency as “the most corrupt health agency, and perhaps the most corrupt agency in the entire federal government,” further fueling public distrust. He canceled vaccine clinics, suspended critical advisory meetings, and silenced scientific input with secretive, politically motivated reviews—all while advancing vaccine skepticism and reckless health misinformation that undermined immunization campaigns and fostered renewed disease outbreaks.​

These developments cemented America’s loss of global leadership in public health innovation and pandemic preparedness, leading experts to warn that Kennedy’s regime is “dismantling the federal public health infrastructure” in ways “dramatic and quick and so haphazard, it’s going to cost lives”. Essential teams fighting HIV, tuberculosis, domestic violence, childhood lead poisoning, and occupational health were fired en masse. The resulting void in research, emergency response, and disease surveillance leaves the entire country more susceptible not only to epidemics, but to the cascading economic and social impacts of unmanaged health crises—directly undermining the resilience of industrial civilization at a critical historical inflection point.


ICE: Militarization and Internal Colonialism

The Expansion of ICE

Trump’s use of ICE, Border Patrol, and active-duty military as domestic police is a radical escalation. Newsom’s account of California’s recent experience links the proliferation of such agencies directly to the ambition of personal rule: “He sent out ICE and Border Patrol to intimidate folks from walking in to our event. He ended up arresting this poor soul that was just trying to sell strawberries as collateral damage to intimidate us. That is a preview, Stephen [Colbert], of things to come in voting booths and polling places across this country. He federalized 4,000 National Guard in my state. He still has hundreds of federalized National Guard. He sent the United States Marines, not overseas, but to an American city”.​

Loyalty to the Executive, Not the Law

Most alarming, ICE operatives and other federal law enforcement increasingly “appear to be swearing an oath of office to him [Trump], not the Constitution of the United States.” This resembles the Praetorian Guards or secret police of previous authoritarian regimes—state actors who enforce the will of the leader and see constitutional or moral constraints as irrelevant or subversive. The sheer scale—“30,000 people”—combined with secrecy and immunity, means ICE has become an agent of terror, wielded against civilian populations for political gain.​​


Decadence as Collapse

The Performance of Power

Every performance of grandeur—the “triumphal arches,” “boat parades,” and “sequined courtiers”—is not just spectacle, but a warning sign. History remembers Marie Antoinette (“Let them eat cake”) not because the attribution was accurate, but because the phrase “captures the logic of ruling decadence. Her luxury wasn’t just obliviousness—it was an assertion: I live above your suffering”. Each ritual, each show of gold and opulence, is “meant to humiliate restraint, reason, and law.”​

However, history also shows that such displays are fraught with fear. Beneath the performance is “the fear of being seen as he is, of being small, of losing the stage”—a warning of fragility. As the man behind the curtain is revealed, the collapse of the “theater of power” becomes swift and catastrophic.​


Self-Destruction and “Extinction Burst”

The Terminal Panic of Authoritarian Regimes

The internal logic of failing authoritarian regimes is one of escalating desperation. As legitimacy slips—confirmed by electoral repudiation—Trump’s ideological faction undergoes an “extinction burst”: an explosive period of hyper-aggressive reassertion designed to cement gains before the collapse becomes terminal.​

Steve Bannon, Trump adviser, openly admitted: “If we lose the midterms and we lose 2028, some in this room are going to prison, myself included.” This is not bravado, but fear. The movement’s control is slipping, and its actions grow more extreme and error-prone. As this faction “pushes too hard, too fast, everyone will lash out… the more aggressive they get, the more they rush… the more mistakes they’re gonna make, the more lines they’re going to cross. They push too hard, too fast, everyone will lash out”. This dynamic is visible across history: the more authoritarian regimes squeeze, the faster collapse arrives.​


Collapse of Industrial Civilization: The Macro Context

Structural Barriers to Renewal

The late industrial world confronts limits that no amount of executive performance, repression, or technological optimism can overcome. One of the most fundamental constraints is the declining Energy Return on Investment (EROI)—the ratio of usable energy generated to energy expended in extraction, production, and delivery. Over the past century, the EROI for oil extraction has plunged from values over 1000:1 in the early twentieth century to below 10:1 today for many conventional resources, and often as low as 5:1 in more recent U.S. fields. A 2024 Nature study confirms that the “useful-stage EROI” for fossil fuel sources is now just 3.5:1 on average, with coal performing somewhat better, but oil and gas in clear decline.​

While renewable energy technologies such as solar and wind offer EROIs that sometimes reach 10:1 to 20:1 under optimal conditions, recent peer-reviewed research emphasizes that large-scale deployment and associated battery storage, grid upgrades, and intermittent supply smoothing drive those EROI values lower in real-world system-wide contexts. According to Nature (2024), ambitious transitions to renewables may temporarily boost system-wide EROI, but will eventually drive it downward as society grapples with the massive energy inputs required for infrastructure expansion and maintenance. In many plausible future scenarios, global EROI falls below the threshold—often cited as 7:1—needed to sustain economic growth and the complexity of modern civilization.​

This erosion of net energy surplus means that the material basis underpinning social complexity, infrastructure maintenance, and economic dynamism is shrinking. The fossil-fueled expansion that built suburban America, highways, and global trade since World War II was underwritten by “golden era” EROIs of 30:1 or higher. Today, this advantage is over: the energy economy now faces an “energy trap”—legacy infrastructure can’t be replaced or maintained at scale, but transitioning to renewables is itself energy intensive, slow, and systemically disruptive.​

These limits are not simply technical barriers; they impose structural constraints on every aspect of policy ambition and societal renewal. As authoritarian regimes scramble to defend the status quo, protect fossil interests, and suppress dissent, they are not solving the underlying problem but merely postponing inevitable collapse. Thus, declining EROI is a robust, empirically confirmed driver behind the faltering structures of advanced civilization—a trend that starkly exposes the hollowness of contemporary spectacle, rhetoric, and autocratic control.

The Central Irony: Power and Powerlessness

As the gap between spectacle and reality grows, and infrastructure falters, societies marked by authoritarian excess increasingly turn to performative displays of strength—rallies, parades, shows of wealth, and harsh enforcement—to mask their foundational weaknesses. Yet decadence becomes self-critique: these grandiose displays serve only to underline the system’s exhaustion and fragility, offering spectacle as a substitute for real achievement.

The more leaders invest in illusion and domination, the more they highlight their impotence to address genuine crises—whether infrastructural, social, or economic. Spectacle blurs the boundary between power and impotence; appearances take precedence over substance, masking social alienation while provoking resentment and rage beneath the facade. As rulers become ever more detached from the true condition of their society, their overt excesses and insistence on control expose their fear of dissent and decline. This paradox—where the assertion of total power reveals profound vulnerability—ensures that such displays ultimately hasten collapse, as the managed image of strength unravels under the weight of unmet needs and rising anger.


Conclusion: When the Performance Ends

Trump’s failed authoritarian project, with its ICE enforcers, deregulation, and “let them eat cake” pageantry, is not only a threat to democracy—it is proof of how industrial civilization, facing terminal decline, can tip into violence, spectacle, and self-destruction. The performance, ultimately, ends “when the people stop believing the show”. Collapse comes not as the abrupt end of the spectacle, but as a slow-motion unraveling of legitimacy, institutions, and the capacity to maintain society for all, not just the few.​

The road ahead is fraught. Authoritarianism will not resurrect the age of fossil plenty, nor will the militarization of everyday life rebuild corroded institutions. Only radical reform, civic renewal, and the courage to face limits—material, social, and ethical—can avert the terminal trajectory of decadent decline. The clock, as history warns, is ticking.

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The Sound of Our Undoing

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The summer dusk descends bereft of choir,
No chittered hymn, no pulse of ancient lyre;
The grass lies mute beneath the pale, brooding moon,
Where ghostly echoes mourn a vanished tune.

Where have the fiddlers gone who wooed the night,
Their legs like bowstrings thrumming timeless rite,
Who sang in fevered cadence through the air,
And wove night’s voice in music, tense and rare.

The silence now is absolute and cold,
A vacant stage where once their vigil told
Of seasons turning, harvests yet to reap,
Of lovers whispering where shadows sleep.

I searched the hedgerows where they used to dwell,
Every stem, every leaf, and hollow shell,
But found no trace of wing or insect frame—
Just hollow grass that bore no whispered name.

The scientists speak grimly of the cause:
Pesticides that mocked all natural laws,
And warming nights that shattered primeval code,
While concrete sprawled across their last abode.

Yet here’s the twist that makes my marrow freeze—
Perhaps they vanished, sensing slow disease;
Perhaps they saw what we refused to see,
And stilled their voice in veiled prophecy.

For we who poisoned earth with careless hands
Now lie awake in self-made barren lands,
And in the void their chorus used to fill,
We finally hear our conscience, cold and shrill.

The children never knew what they have lost,
They cannot mourn a song they never crossed,
They sleep through sterile silence, unaware
That emptiness now permeates the air.

The crickets sang our requiem, it seems,
Then vanished softly through our fevered dreams—
They warned us long before we knew the cost:
That when their music ceased, we too were lost.

Beneath Winter’s Veil

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We smile and praise the winter’s spell,
Its crystal drifts and pristine snow,
Yet truths are cloaked in what we tell,
Hiding the chill that waits below.

For winter brings no peace, but pause—
A hush that gnaws the fragile threads
Of secrets the season weaves and draws
From ghosts that stir in frozen beds.

The others smile at Christmas light,
While I recede from warmth and cheer;
They cannot sense the veiled frost’s bite
That shrouds my heart in buried fear.

The birches whisper, pale and thin,
They wear their grief as tattered lace,
While some old sorrow, sealed within,
Summons the tears I dare not face.

How strange that peace can wound the heart,
That silence burns as embers die,
And beauty, haunting, falls apart
Beneath a still and voiceless sky.

Yet come the thaw, these pangs may fade;
No sorrow dares outlast the sun—
Though beauty trembles, half-afraid,
Life endures when all seems undone.

Of Lace and Lupine Hunger

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Beneath the autumn moon’s malignant glare,
A maiden walked through mist-enshrouded trees,
Her wedding gown like gossamer in air,
While something prowled beyond the dying leaves.

She sought her groom who’d vanished, pale, forlorn,
His absence strange, his parting words unclear—
“I’ll await you where shadows wake the wild reborn,
Where civilized men surrender to their fear.”

She found him kneeling on a grave of bone,
His flesh convulsing into matted fur,
His human voice replaced by bestial moan,
As moonlight vowed the curse would long endure.

Her fingers trembled as she reached his face,
A glimpse of love behind the yellowed eye—
He slashed her veil with claws, a crude embrace,
While bridal lace ran crimson—love’s twisted reply.

The moon recoiled behind a shroud of red,
Rose petals whispered what the dead implore;
Two apparitions entwined where vows were said—
The maiden’s heart a wolf forevermore.

In darkness yoked beneath the bloodlit sky,
Their tethered souls condemned, mortality undone—
Bound by lupine hunger, they nightly die,
Enslaved by lunar madness, damned eternally as one.

The Scholar’s Midnight Reckoning

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In the shadowed chamber where the midnight bell tolls,
A scholar toils by a flickering flame,
His fingers trace lines on crumbling scrolls,
Whispering truths forbidden none dare name.

The world without seems a masquerading guise,
Of faces that mock in phantasmal delight,
Yet touch them, and they unravel as lies,
Fading swift into the abysses of night.

He rises to wander the fog-veiled street
Where echoes of footsteps haunt his own tread,
Each doorway a riddle, each threshold replete
With visions that stir from the dreams of the dead.

Is this the mirage of reason’s façade,
Or merely a canvas of madness unfurled?
The heart beats a rhythm in grim promenade,
A pulse in the void of a fractured world.

He seeks the wise seer in her cryptic abode,
Who reads in the stars the illusions we chase,
But her eyes, milky orbs in vision bestowed,
Reflect the scholar’s face in damnation’s gaze.

“You chase what is not,” her cracked voice intones,
“All substance a figment that fades in decay,
The sum of your labors, the loss that bemoans—
Mere grains in the hourglass, slipping astray.”

He laughs then, a sound like the raven’s cruel call,
For in seeking truth, he has found the grand jest:
The seer herself vanishes, a shade into the wall,
And he wakes in his chamber, the scroll on his chest.

Yet dawn brings no solace, nor hope’s gentle gleam;
The flame gutters low, and the shadows return.
Is all that we see or deem but a dream
Within a nightmare where lost souls eternally burn?

At last, the scholar sees: this world’s a torment of strife,
No balm for weary souls within its tortured keep;
Perhaps beyond the shroud that divides waking life,
Another world awaits—where the broken still weep.

The scholar, trembling, wanders dusk-draped streets alone,
His mind a shattered clockwork, haunted by restless souls,
Strange figures beckon as the lamplight’s pallor is thrown—
He slips into the night no living heart consoles.

The scholar drifts through twilight’s boundless haze,
His quill bleeds secrets where silent specters creep;
He writes what time itself betrays,
And grieves for dreams trapped forever in our sleep.

Forgiven by the Mountain

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He climbed through flickers of October’s flame,
Where wild maples blazed in scarlet spray;
Gold aspens whispered softly to his name,
And birches trailed pale ghosts along the way.

The crisp air bore resin’s woody perfume,
Where velvet moss adorned each granite ledge;
Where distant lakes gleamed gold till dusk resumed,
And hope swam through the stillness at forest’s edge.

Billows of cloud unfurled in folds of white,
Drifting toward hidden hollows—secrets sealed,
Their breath as cold as sorrow’s frozen bite,
Yet each new form, by morning sun, revealed.

He passed beneath a vault of azure sky
Where eagle shadows swept down the slopes again;
Ridges spread wide before his searching eye,
A timeless kingdom sundered by his pain.

He paused, his losses kindling darkened dread,
Painful echoes drifting through the autumn air;
Grief pressed its weight in memories unsaid—
Yet still he climbed, the summit drawing near.

Pure beauty, pressing close in leaf and mist,
Insisted on its place despite his scars;
A riot sung in hues he could not resist—
Burning in silent splendor beneath the stars.

At last, the crest dissolved in cloud’s embrace;
With crimson valleys soft beneath his feet,
He learned that grief and wonder share one place—
And found, in hushed awe, himself complete.

He sees at last—the ache that forged his years
Reverberates in the mountain’s weathered face;
In silence, they join their kindred spheres—
A soul restored through earth’s forgiving grace.

The Invitation

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You walk where night forgets the name
Of every heart it ever claimed;
Your scent drifts feral ‘round my need,
Too pure to break, too proud to bleed.

I’ve watched you step through sleepless air,
Unknowing how I linger there;
Your presence hums—a whispered key—
It bends the dark and calls to me.

Your veins are rivers lit with heat,
Each throb a rhythm, slow and sweet;
You wear the aura of mortal trust,
And taste of hunger, fire, and lust.

If I should speak, the sound would glide,
Along your throat, and slip inside;
A murmur trembling ‘neath your skin,
Inviting what should not begin.

I’ve walked since cities rose from stone,
A thousand hearts became my own;
I’ve kissed till bliss grew cold and still—
And drained their want past dawn’s cold chill.

Your heartbeats trace my aching prayer,
They echo soft, though you’re not yet aware;
The world around you fades to red,
A promise whispered, half unsaid.

There’s comfort where the shadows lean,
More soft than light has ever been;
And in that dark, the sweetest part—
My spell remains, enthroned in your heart.

Behold—salvation in obsidian shroud,
A specter watching as daylight bowed;
I’ll take your breath and hush your cries
With rapture none can recognize.

So close your eyes, unlearn the sun,
The longest night has just begun;
I’ll love you where all light withdrew,
And leave my darkness inside of you.

Web of the Grimoire

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A scholar found a leather tome one autumn afternoon,
Its pages gilt with curses old beneath October’s moon.
He bore it home with eager hands, convinced he’d found his prize—
A gateway into secret arts, forbidden, dark, and wise.

The grimoire promised mastery o’er death and fleeting time,
With incantations etched in blood, inscribed in cursive serpentine.
“Three wishes shall be granted thee,” the cryptic letters bled,
“But hearken, fool: thy final cost is better left unread.”

His first wish was for wealth untold, for gold beyond compare,
And soon his chamber brimmed with spoil from shadows unaware.
Yet every coin was stamped with grief, each jewel a frozen tear—
Now plunder of a thousand graves festered through his haunted lair.

He asked for one to hold him fast, a heart that would not stray,
Yet soon her touch was everywhere—she would not fade away.
Her pallid arms enclosed his life—an ever-gnarling briar,
Smothering every waking thought in obsession’s strangling mire.

The scholar wept and cursed the book, its promises were lies,
Each blessing dripped with grief’s reprise and seeped into his night.
He begged to use his final wish to set the wrongs to right,
To banish all the grimoire’s gifts and flee its wicked blight.

“I wish I’d never found this tome!” he screamed into the dark,
The pages fluttered like dying moths, each word a crimson mark.
The grimoire closed with hollow laugh, its binding cracked and worn—
And time rewound to autumn’s eve, the day before that morn.

The scholar walked the forest path beneath October’s sky,
When something caught his searching gaze where fallen branches lie.
A leather tome with pages gilt, shrouded in leaf and moss—
He reached for it with eager hands, oblivious to the cost.

For grimoires do not grant escape, nor mercy, nor reprieve—
They only spin the web again for those who still believe.
The scholar’s fate was sealed anew, to live this curse’s truth:
Forever finding, wishing, losing, trapped in time’s eternal loop.