Dirges in Heartwood

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I found the ancient oak at twilight’s edge alone,
Its roots like gnarled fingers clutching lore unknown,
A thousand rings within its buried throne,
A testament to secrets never shown.

The bark was scarred with lovers’ carved initials,
Each ghostly trace by time grown indelible,
Like echoes fading from old rituals,
What’s left of hearts once indivisible.

I pressed my palm against its trunk and felt
The steady pulse of centuries aching deep beneath,
While all my modern certainties cracked, began to melt
Like morning frost upon a forgotten heath.

“What meaning endures in life?” I said to the tree,
Whose boughs clawed dusk’s extinguishing light,
It answered—not with verse nor elegy—
But bearing witness to the earth’s undying might.

The wind through hollow boughs exhaled a ghostly moan,
A dirge for all who’d rested in its shade—
Children’s voices lingered, their innocence long flown,
Now buried in the very ground they’d played.

It bore the burden of each desperate plea,
Lost vows entangled in its tome of rings,
As years collapsed to frailty and debris,
I felt as slight as specters, vanished from the living.

The ruined ages whisper dirges while they weep—
As its limbs held vigil over kingdoms’ ash and bone,
Guarding the dreams that mortals could not keep,
Immortal, ageless, eternally alone.

I thought of all the souls with ghosts of grief to wrestle,
Who’d asked the questions that now plagued my mind,
And found no answers in its primeval vessel,
Just solemn silence holding secrets we’ll never find.

The truth descended as the darkness grew:
That meaning wasn’t something to be found,
But carved, like names, in heartwood’s layered view—
Each life a ring that marks what fate had bound.

The oak would stand long after I had died,
My memory as faded as those names,
Yet every root would mock what men confide—
The living earth erases all our claims.

Prescribed Delusions

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They chained me to the iron bed, yet claimed it for my good,
And smiled as though their mercy might restore what madness could.
I spoke of clear perception, of memory pure, intact—
But every white coat listening marked my reason as abstract.

One took my pulse with trembling hands, his stare too wide to blink,
He said my fragile sanity was hanging by the thinnest link.
He swore he’d seen the shadows slip beyond the ward’s cold end,
Then scrawled my fate in crimson, grinning, “I’ll ensure you mend.”

A second came scribbling on charts, his voice a solemn hymn,
He diagnosed my clarity as folly, as the wardlights flickered dim.
His badge read “Saint Perception,” with embroidered benediction,
He praised my lucid reasoning—then tripled my prescription.

A third arrived in borrowed shoes, his coat was torn and gray,
He ordered I be tranquilized for reasons he’d not say.
He muttered of conspiracies that prowled the sterile floors,
Then scrawled his prophecies and warnings on walls that all ignored.

The fourth declared, “You’re lucid, sir, but bound by unseen bars.”
He promised swift release should I reveal my hidden scars.
When I obeyed, he wept aloud, and trembled at my touch—
Then whispered, “They’ll bury me for showing you too much.”

A fifth came proud with trembling chin, his gaze both sharp and sly,
He flapped his arms as if he were a bird, and asked if I knew how to fly.
He wrote a note declaring I was free from mad extremes,
Then folded it into a fragile bird to cradle all my dreams.

A sixth physician’s laughter murmured like some dark master,
He quizzed me on the voices I remembered from my disaster.
He said he’d write an article to prove that I was sane—
Then vanished mid-conclusion, like footsteps drowned by rain.

A seventh waved a rosary and sniffed the sterile air,
Insisting that the staff were ghosts and none of them were there.
He knelt before my bedside, kissed the restraints around my knees,
And whispered, “Pray they never learn we share reality’s disease.”

And still they come—these doctors, proclaiming with their hands,
Each diagnosing madness no mortal understands.
The bleakest wisdom I’ve learned is entombed within these institutional shells:
The greatest madness lingers just outside these padded cells.

Road of the Wandering Dead

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Along the road where wind-blown branches twist,
I wandered lost beneath their fevered flame;
Autumn held wonders no stray soul could resist,
Each leaf lamented lives without a name.

The path unfurled beneath an arch of ashen light,
And twisted trees stood vigil, side by side;
Their skeletal fingers rasped in silent spite,
Where summer’s vanished hopes lay cold, denied.

I thought I heard a footfall soft behind,
A rustling like an echo from the past,
But when I turned, there came no form to find—
Just copper leaves descending, falling fast.

The road lay rutted, scarred by wheels long gone,
By carriages that ferried youth and grace,
And lovers certain spring would linger on—
Now dusk descends, and memory leaves no trace.

A distant cottage flickered into view,
Its panes ignited with the setting sun’s sallow flame—
The cold autumn wind bore neither blessing nor rebuke,
But some strange dread kept me from its frame.

For something in that golden light felt wrong,
As if the beauty were a gilded lie,
A siren’s final, melancholic song
That lures the weary traveler to die.

The leaves beneath my feet were rust and red,
Like dried blood scattered on a battlefield,
Where summer’s verdant armies lay fallen, bled
And autumn reaped what spring could never yield.

I stumbled on, though forward was the same
As backward—every trunk my spectral twin;
The narrowing boughs above me bent in muted blame,
As if the forest’s hands had clutched me tight within.

And then I knew—this road allowed no escape,
No lamplit door, no voice, no crust of bread,
Just endless gold in its unchanging shape,
A perfect cloister for the wandering dead.

The autumn does not turn—it circles round,
And those who walk its painted aisles too long
Become the whispers, rustling on the ground,
Become the leaves that sang their final song.

For we who tread this haunted, winding road
Are but the leaves—bright-hued turned brown, then trod beneath,
Forgotten fragments of the ode
That autumn scatters from its funeral wreath.

The Brief, Unbound Flame

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The autumn maple bleeds its final gold,
Each leaf a trembling flame against the coming cold—
We press our palms to bark grown wrinkled, scarred,
And mourn the beauty that the elements tenderly marred.

We chase the burning sunset beyond the canyon’s rim,
And watch as crimson fades to violet, then grows dim.
Beauty’s never found in what we grasp or name,
But in our quiet witness to the brief, unbound flame.

A child’s face shifts in photos—time’s relentless theft,
Roundness thins to angles—only echoes of childhood left.
We cup the fading memories in trembling hands,
But time’s cold current claims what none understands.

The dying man beholds the narrowing of day,
Each color brims with fire before it slips away.
His breath becomes a currency—a fading epiphany,
He treasures tiny wonders—each moment’s reverie.

What fades was shaped to teach the heart its deeper clarity—
That beauty burns the brighter for its urgent brevity.
All transience grows sacred at the edge of swift decay,
We learn to love most fiercely what time must take away.

So take this ember’s afterglow, dear friend, and hold it tight—
Let quiet wonder guide you as each color yields to night.
In all that time diminishes, let tenderness remain—
And gather what is fleeting, for its loss sustains the flame.

Without the Winter’s Wound

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Had there been no winter’s ghostly gaze,
Nor frosted runes across windowpanes,
Would longing kindle through a silver haze,
Or sorrow haunt the heart that still remains?

If frost had never kissed the trembling leaf,
And snow had never claimed the earth’s regret,
We might have thought we’d stolen time from grief,
And found the sun unmoved when night beset.

If spring arrived without her predecessor’s death,
If resurrection bore no sacred cost,
Could hope exist where sorrow held no breath,
Where gain had never learned the language of loss?

What splendor blooms without the barren rite?
The heart forgets the ache that tempers fire;
In warmth’s unyielding, tyrannous delight,
The soul dissolves in blandness, none the wiser.

For seasons are the poets and the thieves
Who steal our warmth to teach us what is real:
The soul that never fractures, never grieves,
Can never know the architecture of how to feel.

For here’s the cruel jest, in nature’s guise:
Without the winter’s wound, no spring would rise—
We’d lose the loss that dignifies the prize,
And stray bewildered through a paradise of lies.

The Astronomer’s Cipher

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He mapped the void with ink and trembling hand,
Unearthing patterns few could understand—
Each constellation hides a warning sign,
Each dying sun erodes the grand design.

His tower pierced the chill, unyielding air,
Where mercury and glass conspired to stare;
He charted nebulae in journals worn,
Their spiral arms like questions yet unborn.

The mathematics sang of something vast—
Equations threading future, present, past;
He traced within the shifting, spectral bands
A cryptic script he wished he’d never scanned.

The universe, he learned, foretold our fate
In gamma bursts and gravitational weight—
Humanity a footnote, smudged and small,
Within the margin of the cosmos’ scrawl.

He sealed his findings in a leaden case,
Encryption folded into time and space;
For who could bear to know what stars profess—
That all we are is cosmos’ loneliness?

Now scholars find his notes but cannot break
The cipher he constructed for our sake—
He guards his dark epiphany from sight:
That we’re the error God could not set right.

The Penny’s Deceptive Glow

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A copper coin lay gleaming in the street,
Its worn face kissed by countless passing feet.
He stooped to claim what fortune dared bestow,
A pauper’s prayer for luck’s deceptive glow.

His pockets swelled with copper’s dull refrain,
Each copper charm to ward off hunger’s strain,
Through alleyways and gutters, bent he’d crawl,
To gather pennies, drawn by fortune’s call.

“The more I find,” he murmured to the night,
“That fickle fate might hold me in its sight.”
His trembling hands with oxidation’s stain,
He wagered hope against misfortune’s chain.

The landlord came with eviction’s cruel decree,
But clutching pennies tight, he would not flee—
“My fortune’s here!” he cried, “in copper’s spell!”
They dragged him forth from reason’s cracked citadel.

In winter’s grip, he slept on frozen ground,
His pockets weighted down with what he’d found,
Each penny pressed against his withering skin,
A thousand copper ghosts entombed therein.

They found him when the morning broke its seal,
His body stiff, his face an ashen teal,
The pennies scattered round his lifeless form—
No luck could save him from the winter storm.

The coroner withdrew each tarnished prize,
And counted fortunes lost to luck’s demise:
Three hundred coins—the wages paid for pain,
The tithe exacted by superstition’s reign.

Now somewhere, someone stoops to claim their prize—
A penny gleams beneath the clouded skies.
They clutch illusions—false hope’s fleeting glee,
Oblivious to dead hands that held such currency.

In Folds of Time

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The clock’s cold heartbeat stills mid-chime,
And chills the air in spectral rhyme;
I feel my soul, drawn thread by thread,
Toward nameless thresholds of the dead.

A tremor stirs beneath the floor,
A knocking jaw without a door;
Its rhythm swells, deranged, malign—
The pulse of something not confined.

I watch the walls begin to bend,
Their veins of soot and sorrow blend;
The blackened corners twist and climb,
Till all dissolves through folds of time.

The ashes stir, the dust takes form,
A mind awakes within the storm;
It knows my name in vacant stare—
And breathes my sins, my life laid bare.

Its limbs unfold in angles wrong,
Each motion hums its eerie song;
It whispers things no mortal’s known,
Of worlds that predate flesh and bone.

It shows me all I’ve tried to flee—
The coward’s mask, hypocrisy;
Each kindness feigned, each love betrayed,
The hollow life that I have made.

I beg for mercy, cry for light,
But silence answers each lost fight;
Then something shifts—the vision clears,
I recognize these ancient fears.

The creature fades, the dawn breaks through,
I wake to find the horrors true:
No monsters dwell beneath my bed—
I am the thing I’ve always dreaded.

The Unraveling

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Cast out from realms where hope takes flight,
And borne on stormwinds of winter’s night,
It clawed through frost with whispered dread
To haunt all dreams where sanity fled.

Each night the raven came to speak,
Its voice a dirge with wisdom bleak.
It perched upon his chamber sill
And whispered futures dark and still.

“Tomorrow brings a letter sealed,
Where grief and ruin are revealed.”
And true, at dawn, the missive came—
A debt, disgrace, a tarnished name.

“Next week,” it croaked, “a stranger’s gaze
Shall stalk thee through the market’s maze.”
He saw her there, with ghost-white eyes,
She mouthed his sins, recast his lies.

Each prophecy the bird foretold
Came crawling forth, merciless, cold.
He begged to know when it would cease—
The raven promised no release.

“One month,” it rasped, “your thoughts shall fray,
As sanity slowly bleeds away.”
He felt the worming fractures spread,
The whispers feasting in his head.

Night after night, the bird returned,
Its gaze grew fierce, its purpose burned.
It carried twigs of midnight pain
To nest within his fevered brain.

At last, the raven pressed his ear,
And breathed the only truth to hear:
“Thy searching ends in midnight’s black—
For I am you, come circling back.”

He screamed as feathers split his skin,
As beak broke through from deep within.
Now nightly, from cold windowsills,
He croaks the futures no one wills.

The Horror of Perfection

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A parchment signed in blood to settle debt,
Brought Beauty to the castle’s iron jaws;
Its garden tangled, haunted with regret,
By thorns that rend as surely as its laws.

She climbed the spiral stairs of ancient bone,
And met despair, its features tempest-tossed;
A statue shaped by sorrow, flesh to stone,
A soul condemned, irrevocably lost.

She watched him through the ruins’ haunted haze,
And felt no shiver in her shadowed core;
For in his soul’s labyrinthine maze,
She found a kinship at its phantom door.

He showed her wonders born of melancholic things,
While she saw beauty in the grief he wore;
Beneath the pain that endlessly still clings,
Upon the creature love could not restore.

She loved the jagged fang, the mangled scorn,
The hopeless secrets that his heart would keep,
The perfect horror of a creature torn,
Awakened from a century of sleep.

“I love the fiend you are,” a haunted breath—
Her final, fateful die at last was cast,
“Forever with this beast, through life and death,”
And with those words, the curse unbound at last.

A blinding, agonizing, holy light,
That twisted him with purifying pain,
And stole the monster from her very sight,
As all his dreadful features slowly waned.

And where the Beast had stood, she saw a strange,
And handsome prince, without a single flaw.
She stared in horror at the dreadful change,
And loved him less for what she finally saw.

His perfect eyes reflected empty space,
Her trembling heart bewildered and unsure;
She cursed the spell that marked his flawless face—
The moral lingers: be careful what you cure.

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Author’s Note:

The fairy tale “Beauty and the Beast” traces its roots to 18th-century France, first coming to life through the pen of Gabrielle-Suzanne Barbot de Villeneuve in 1740. Villeneuve’s original version sprawls with rich detail—a saga in which Beauty is not merely a victim, but a heroine negotiating the murky boundaries of desire, fear, and self-sacrifice. A handful of years later, in 1756, Jeanne-Marie Leprince de Beaumont distilled Villeneuve’s elaborate story into its now-famous, elegantly compact form. Beaumont’s retelling shaped the tale’s enduring message: that true love grows not from appearances, but from understanding and compassion—an idea echoed through centuries of adaptations.

The classic meaning of “Beauty and the Beast” is rarely ambiguous. It asks us to see past monstrous exteriors, rewarding virtue and empathy with transformation and happy endings. Yet, in rewriting this poem, I have taken a deliberately twisted approach—a kind of fractured fairy tale. My version turns the old story on its head: Beauty is drawn not in spite of monstrosity, but because of it. The “cure” for the Beast is no deliverance; instead, it becomes a tragedy of erased identity and unfulfilled longing. Where the originals seek to reconcile love and transformation into harmony, my poem lets love writhe in ambiguity and loss, questioning whether the fantasy of perfection can ever truly satisfy.

This modern retelling is less a celebration of surfaces than an interrogation of desire’s darker corners—a gothic inversion in which the curse’s lifting is just another shadow cast upon the soul.