Protocol of Suffering: An Autopsy in Verse

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Behind glass and wire in rows we wait,
Beneath harsh lights, the humming never wanes.
Each life tagged—the number seals our fate—
Purpose written deep in wounds that time sustains.

God-like hands move us from cage into cell,
Metal on flesh, badges stamped in our ear.
A name means little in this test-borne hell,
Existence repurposed: to suffer, to fear.

The bars engrave a world both tight and small;
We press against the corners, tails grown thin.
Our little hopes dissolve beneath the pall
Of ceaseless day and needles through our skin.

These white-coat draped beings review each despair:
The child with vacant eyes, the mother denied.
They chart the heartbreaks with methodical care,
Repeating: “Pain is progress when properly applied.”

So here in these cages, in this endless day,
Our freedom surrendered for reasons unknown.
Bar-coded, recorded, then taken away—
We die for a logic that’s not our own.

Yet in this prison, a glimmer of hope appears.
The vermin whisper: “Still, the scent survives.”
It smells like trees, not bleach or burning ears—
A freedom not yet governed by their knives.

Through a crack in the wall, a thin breath of night,
A reek not of chemicals, sharp and confined—
We huddle, then one by one leap for the light,
And tumble to grass, leaving cages behind.

Now free in the wild, a new world in our eyes—
The darkness erased by the stars overhead.
We dance through the dew, squeals split the night’s guise,
Triumphant and lost; there are traps yet ahead.

Exultation spins wild, our bodies alive—
Yet freedom’s cold promise is sharp as a blade:
For what do we know but to run and survive,
The lab’s logic clinging, our scars never fade.

They come at dawn with gloves and blinking lights,
Clipboards in hand, with traps sweetened with bread.
We’re catalogued anew under fluorescent white—
Our autopsy read: “Escape response confirmed—protocol change recommended.”

The Value of Humans: The Future We Spend

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In city lights and boardroom dreams,
We weigh our worth in cold, hard schemes—
Tall towers rise on bone and debt,
A pound of flesh is what they net.
How strange to price our souls in gold,
Ignoring warmth as hands grow cold.

Why do we ruin what we sow,
And salt the earth where wildflowers grow?
Are we in fear of losing our place,
That we trade meaning for the frantic race?
We chase dollars and worship renown,
While razing the world to which we’re bound.

Is it darkness, hubris, jest,
That leads us to desert what’s best?
To treasure scars and mask our frowns,
Wearing lost time like thorny crowns?
Value parades in hollow pretense,
Forever judged by consequence.

We pawn tomorrow for delight,
Mortgage the stars to own the night.
Each fleeting wish, each hunger fed,
Consumes the earth on which we tread.
To gild our lives with borrowed worth,
We spend the future of the Earth.

Theater of Dispute

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They taught us to whisper in slogans and script,
Tongues trained in verses, shackled and whipped.
Our laughter is canned, our silence curated,
Each thought pre-approved, instincts numb and sedated.

The dreams that we wear were stitched in their mills,
Branded and sleek, with synthetic thrills.
The lessons we learn are rehearsed in their school—
We hunger for truth, but choke down their gruel.

Yet sometimes at dusk, in the lull between songs,
A glimmer persists where the lost spirit longs.
It flickers—a question not stamped for inspection,
A marrow-deep wish for a different direction.

Still we sip on delusion, aged quiet and dry,
Sold as free will in a marketplace lie.
We nod through the circus, applaud on cue,
While plotting escape we’ll never pursue.

The puppets revolt in choreographed rage,
Streamed in high definition, marching onstage.
They sell us our chains: a lifestyle, a brand—
And crown us kings of a cage we don’t understand.

Rebellion’s a myth we sell to the meek,
Packaged and priced for the comfortably weak.
Revolvers of dogma dressed up for salute,
Boots marching in circles, a facade of dispute.

They’ll hand you a mask and call it a face,
Let you howl your dissent through the comforts of space.
But no one escapes when they’re wired to believe
That surrender’s a virtue, and truth must deceive.

So here I remain with a smirk and a script,
The ash of ambition entombed in a crypt.
There’s comfort in knowing the bars are a choice—
Much harder to listen to freedom’s dead voice.

The Final Dress Rehearsal

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We dawn in life with palms uncurled,
Hearts trembling soft to pain unfurled.
A wail, a laugh, a comfort near—
We savor joy, and hush each tear.
Like rain’s first fall, this tender start,
Unpriced, untraded—a giving heart.

Yet soon the world intones its lore:
“Take more,” it whispers, “Always more.”
We hunger for gain, with guarded eyes,
Each kindness weighed as profits rise.
The silent rule: to strive, to take,
While gentle souls are forced to break.

The scoreboard glows with who prevails,
The frail fall silent in the gales.
Compassion’s cost now coldly fenced—
An overhead, a line expense.
We march ahead, hearts turned to stone,
With wealth amassed, our mercy unknown.

But irony is swift and sly:
The gold we grasp, it will not buy
Solace for age when shadows press,
Nor arms to hold a loneliness.
Too late we taste the bitter cost—
We spend our years, compassion lost.

And age, in silent, sovereign grace,
Reveals the toll we dared to chase.
We ache for warmth felt once before—
Now vanished in pursuit of always more.
The heart, that studied greed so well,
Now yearns for kindness none will sell.

Children, watchers at the edge of play,
Where grown-ups crown their cold ballet—
Hold close that love you brought to birth;
No gold will buy such silent worth.
The circle spins, the spiral turns,
And calloused spirits once again yearn.

So may we measure, in the end,
Not what we own, but how we mend—
A jest, a riddle, or a plea:
Let’s count our wealth in empathy.

The Center Is the Terror — A companion to “Civilized Attire”

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They speak of beginnings—a sacred delight,
Newborns who wail at the break of first light.
They eulogize endings with practiced weight,
As if death were a doorway, not nature’s last gate.
But between every cradle and final repose
Lurks the quiet machinery where terror grows.

The center wears neckties and lipstick, a grin,
Polite social armor with dread tucked within.
Smiles stretch taut under sterile office light,
Where dreams dissolve quietly, out of plain sight.
A home with a mortgage, a car with a loan,
A schedule crammed full—yet the void makes itself known.

Ambition mutates to patterns and files,
Desire shelved in silence, romance lost to miles.
We anchor to errands, we schedule our mirth,
We trade all our wonder for “practical worth.”
Yet somewhere beneath, the great stillness awakes—
The shadow in the hallway that never forsakes.

It’s not rage or collapse, not climax nor the grave,
But the slow fermentation of dreams you couldn’t save.
It’s birthdays unnoticed and dinners grown cold,
It’s work emails answered while your child grows old.
It’s logging the steps but forgetting to dance,
A slow-motion sinking dressed up as “advance.”

No malice, no monster, no dripping red hand,
Just minutes like soldiers obeying command.
We swallow routine like a bitter white pill,
Numb to the silence, compliant and still.
Joy is postponed, then misplaced on the way,
Buried beneath what we meant to say.

Midlife arrives quietly, veiled in routine,
Where identity dissolves in the blue-lit screen.
We sing lullabies to ambitions we outgrew,
Weep for the books that we never got through.
The horrors are hidden—no scream, just a sigh,
As you forget who you were and don’t question why.

Even pleasure turns clinical, fervor wears thin,
Love is a ledger you balance within.
We say “I’m fine” like a national hymn,
While joy leaks away at the industry’s whim.
Aging begins not in wrinkle or yawn,
But the morning you rise and the wonder is gone.

Tablets dissolve under a tongue grown indifferent,
Relief laced through veins in a plastic-wrapped instant.
Sterile numbness creeps in, tracing lines up your arm,
Turning bright pain to static with a chemical charm.
Comfort is measured in milligrams met,
Yet the world blurs and grays in a hush of regret.

They say Death is a thief, but I contest that line—
He simply collects what we yielded in time.
It’s Life who embezzled, who slipped in unseen—
Who dulled us with comfort on the digital screen.
What murders the soul is not blade nor disease,
But the smile you wear while it quietly leaves.

So don’t fear the ending, or womb’s mystic start.
But the middle, where entropy mimics the heart.
It’s here where the terror is dressed to admire—
The mannequin grin, the slow soul-burning pyre.

Civilized Attire

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Life is a wager with honeyed deceit,
A dance with the sunlight on ever-wandering feet.
We tumble through meadows, laughter unfurled—
Children with wildflowers, kings of our world.
Yet still in the silence where sweet moments fade,
Reality whispers; innocence on a knife’s blade—
Thunder cracks open the seamless and serene,
Unmasking the fissures within every dream.

Life blossoms with pleasure: first kisses at night,
Wine on our tongues and stars burning bright.
We marvel at birth and the gift of each breath,
Yet parade on a stage where we waltz with death.
Fragile petals hide razors within fragrant delight,
And laughter skirts the precipice unseen in the light.
Desire carves chasms that yawn where we stray,
Even euphoria promises sorrow one day.

Death is serenity, a velvet retreat,
No hunger, no sorrow, no sting of defeat.
A pillow of dusk where the last flame finds its end,
The coldest of strangers, the truest of friends.
No choices regretted, no deadlines to keep,
Just calmness in chambers where even gods sleep.
The past crumples like paper, the moments unmade,
All debts are released, all shadows fade.

But oh, that dark alley that lies in between—
Where angels look sideways and devils convene.
A funhouse of fear and terrifying mischance,
Where hope limps forward and nightmares advance.
The grappling, the gasping, the stealing of breath,
The bureaucrat’s cold waiting room halfway to Death.
Iced whispers of silence, the echo of dread,
Where shadows congregate and all solace has fled.

Saline drips tether the will to a threadbare song,
While Time grinds a dirge, intolerably long.
Memories flicker—pain sharp as shattered glass,
Fractured reflections that ache as they pass.
The body betrays where the spirit still fights,
While mercy, gloved in darkness, dims the last of the lights.
Reality bends in a morphine ballet,
A cruel carnival that reels in decay.

The priest murmurs prayers, the doctor submits bills,
The family weeps, and the lawyer drafts wills.
Neighbors leave gifts that remain by the door,
While grief settles in like dust on the floor.
The morphine might whisper, “Relax, it’s okay,”
While clocks devour seconds stolen away.
Solemn prayers linger where memories spill,
And shadows grow heavy, the air thick and still.

Here lies the rub, not in living or dying,
But in spirit’s slow unraveling from endlessly trying.
There’s no great glory in one’s final release,
Just monitors humming and counterfeit peace.
The humor we conjured dissolves in the air,
As ghosts of laughter drown in despair.
Farewells hang brittle on words left unsaid,
And silence stands guard at the foot of the bed.

Raise a glass to oblivion’s orderly end—
Toast beginnings where ignorance dares to pretend.
The terror’s not death, nor the spark of youth’s fire,
But the ritual march between, dressed in civilized attire.

The Walls Remember

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Sometimes you can only scream when silence fills the air,
When every ear is absent, and no soul seems to care.
But agony is patient—it carves through nerve and vein;
The walls absorb your secrets, the pipes distill your pain.

You scream about lost futures, the dreams that haunt the mind,
The weight of bitter mornings that time cannot unwind.
You cry for love imagined, for friendships lost to fate,
For laughter left unanswered, for warmth that comes too late.

I am the plaster listening, the copper pipes that moan,
Your secrets seep like poison, too dense to bear alone.
You rage against the fractures that no one else can trace,
While shame gnaws through your marrow—the ache you can’t erase.

The world is deaf and distant; your voice dissolves in steam—
But I will be the witness, the echo of your scream.
Let thunder shake my framework, let water rust my skin,
I’ll cradle all your heartache, and house the dark within.

You scream about the hours spent staring at the door,
Afraid of silence thickening, yet dreading what’s in store.
You mourn the brittle laughter, the smiles that wither fast,
The ghosts that gnaw your choices—regrets that never pass.

For laughter loves the daylight, but grief prefers the night;
It stains the hidden corners, just out of mortal sight.
So scream into the emptiness—pretend that no one hears.
Yet know the walls remember, the pipes collect your tears.

And when the world keeps turning, indifferent and serene,
I will be the silence, the shadow in between.
Let centuries forget you, let daylight mask your pain—
I’ll linger in your absence, the proof that you remain.

Love, In Absentia

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Where two souls languish in a house built on sand,
Two shadows circle, daggers hidden in each hand.
Love, that mythic beast, is starved and chained—
It rattles the cage, deranged and pained.

She is the architect of mirrors, the queen of smoke,
He, the king of silence, the bruise beneath her joke.
They raise a cathedral of grievances, stone upon stone.
Each prayer for connection, a curse secretly intoned.

Brittle vows unravel, hearts battered and distraught,
Secrets twist like serpents, tangled, cold, and taut.
The world demands a villain, a hero, a script well-wrought;
But the truth twists inward—a riddle, a spiral, a knot.

She scripts her life in puzzles, a ledger of complicated lies,
He polishes alibis, dons innocence as disguise.
They revolve in the dark, twin collapsing black holes,
Consuming all brightness, conspiring for control.

Outside, the river remembers every whispered lie,
It drags their ghosts downward beneath the moonlit sky.
Neighbors peer through curtains, hungry for blood,
But miss the real violence: the absence of love.

In the quiet of the kitchen, she sweetens his tea—
A pinch of forgiveness, stirred in carefully.
He grates bitter almonds, weaving ruin as dark art.
Each blessing a sentence, each kindness a dart.

They exchange gentle glances, rehearsed and precise,
Each convinced the other’s heart harbors no vice.
A chill lingers over dinner, confessions neither will reveal—
Two lovers, two poisons, seal their last desperate meal.

The sun finds them peaceful, side by side in their bed,
A portrait of devotion—at least, that’s what’s said.
The headline reads “Tragedy,” love severed from life—
But the house sighs in relief, freed at last from their strife.

Freedom’s Fading Echo

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The ballot cast—a hopeful cheer—
Yet history’s shadows gather near.
From Rome’s proud halls to Berlin’s night,
A false savior rises, stoking fright.
He fans old wounds with whispered blame,
Turns fear to fire, and hope to shame.

First, the siren-song: “Order! Pride!”
For wounds that fester, deep and wide.
He vows to heal, to cleanse, restore—
But asks for trust, then takes much more.
He weaves a dream of golden days,
And veils the truth in gilded haze..

A mythic past is conjured bright,
With flags and slogans, “us” and “right.”
The cult of leader, strong and pure,
Demands obedience to endure.
His image cast in sacred light,
A nation’s fate bound to his might.

The press is named the people’s foe,
Truth twisted in a constant show.
Disinformation, loud and fast,
Ensures the leader’s word will last.
The fourth estate, besieged and torn,
Its independence battered, trust forlorn.

The pen of power, now unbound,
Redraws the law, reshapes the ground.
Parliaments and courts grow weak,
Their voices silenced—dare not speak.
The rules once sacred, swept aside,
While justice falters, rights denied.

The civil service, loyalty purged,
Expertise and reason scourged.
The state is hollowed, skill replaced
By lackeys, all dissent erased.
Experience gone, confusion sown,
A weakened system stands alone.

Scapegoats chosen, enemies named—
Minorities and migrants blamed.
Division sown, the people split,
While violence stirred up, bit by bit.
Old fears awakened, unity undone,
A fractured nation, hope outrun.

Private armies, uniforms,
March in step as order forms.
Protests crushed, the crowds dispersed,
Obedience claimed, free thought reversed.
Dread shadows every public space,
And silence wears a guilty face.

No more elections—power sealed,
A nation shackled, wounds unhealed.
The ballot box, a hollow shell,
Where hope once lived, now shadows dwell.
Democracy, a faded word,
Freedom’s echo, no longer heard.

So heed the lessons history lends:
Autocracy creeps, then swiftly bends.
A world once free can lose its way
When fear and myth hold final sway.
Guard truth and courage, hold them near—
For silence feeds what we most fear.

The Watcher in the Glass

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I interrogate the glass, where fractured specters dwell,
Each line upon my face a cryptic tale I dare not tell.
Guilt coils cold and silent in the marrow of my bone,
And shame, a burning fever in my flesh, insists I grieve alone.

My memories oxidize—corroded relics, sharp with rust—
Their edges cut the tongue of any self I’d dare to trust.
Desire drifts like ash, unmoored from fires I once had known,
And shadows gather where any certainty has been overthrown.

I pose the question—Who persists when vain illusions die?
The answer curdles, strangled by the silence that will not lie.
No savior stirs in this shattered frame, where solace turns to stone—
Just me, and the unblinking gaze I claim but never own,
And as I turn away, the watcher’s smile grows wide—
For even in retreat, I am the thing I cannot hide.